Friday, April 22, 2011

Songs of Praise

"How great is our God”

“You caught my soul when I was struggling to breathe”

“You are the love that frees us, you are the light that leads us, like a fire burning”

“You make beautiful things out of dust”

“He has cheated Hell and seated us above the Fall”

“The earth is Yours and singing”

“You are the living water, flow through me, wash me clean”

“I once was lost, now I’m alive in You”

“To live for Christ, I first must die, to all the rivals in my life”

“Tear down the walls that divide us, let love rebuild and unite us”

“All glory, honor, power is Yours, Amen.”

Monday, April 18, 2011


So I've had something on my mind grapes* these past few weeks and I wanted to get some feedback from my fellow slices and mentors. I've never been baptized before and it's something I've really always wanted to do. I really can't figure out why I haven't done it before, maybe timing, laziness, or lack of conviction, but in a way I'm really glad I've waited. Many of my friends were baptized in middle school or younger and they hardly remember it. I really feel like I'm at a place in my life where baptism would be really symboloic and meaningful.

That being said, I'm also having some significant hesitations though. The first one is a little bit trivial and I know it doesn't seem like something that is incredibly crucial, but I've always wanted to get baptized in a river. All of my friends were and the church I went to back in Folsom did summer baptisms in the American River. I guess I always just pictured that for myself. But it just seems like such a material or worldly desire. I know tht the significance of baptism goes beyond those things. My main hesitation is that my family wouldn't be there. I went home for my spring break last month, so I can't afford to go back up for this month. Also I don't have anytime off from school. Are those good reasons to wait on something like a baptism? Shouldn't it be solely a personal decision? Why do I feel so hesitant about the lack of community support?

I'm just curious to hear what you guys have to say. I'd really like some advise and prayer on guidance in this matter. Thank you so much for reading everyone!

*high five to anyone who got that reference....

Friday, April 8, 2011

0 Unread

Oh man does that feel good! I did it! I read every single one the of the blogs! Can I just say how much I love all of you guys? Seriously, I am so blessed to be a part of this community. Each one of you has this amazing inspiring faith that I continue to learn from each and every week through blogs and conversations. I'm praying for all of you and I am so thankful that you are all in my life. Thank you.

And now that I've done that, I simply cannot find the motivation to write my own. I pray I find some sort of inspiration and motivation come morning time. Here's to an insightful and moving blog tomorrow!


Friday, April 1, 2011

Core Five

I can't exactly figure out why I am feeling so sentimental this afternnoon, but I feel called to share how incredibly blessed I am by the friendships in my life.  This might be a little cheesy so I apologize.  I'm not normally this gushing over in emotions...except for during Disney animated films, but that's not what this blog is about.

I've been fortunate enough to have the same core group of friends for the past nine years or so.  I met this wonderful group of girls when I started attending my middle school youth group and our group grew once we reached high school.  I think what made this group so unique is that very few of us went to the same school, but we still remained close throughout all of those years.  And even now we are sprinkled across California and even across continents, but I still consider them my closest confidants and influences over my life.  I heard it said one that you are the average of the five people you hang out with.  It really makes you think twice about who you are asssociating with.  Not only are you the average of those people, but it's important to realize that outsiders will perceive you this way as well.  I look at these girls and I am so grateful that they are the women I have become an average of.  We have all grown up together.  Grown up in every sense of the word: physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.  If everything about my character is an average of these girls, I am especially grateful for their faith.  These girls challenge me, inspire me, and hold me accountable.  I feel so blessed to be a part of this intimate little community we have created.

I realize how much I have in these girls when I compare this lifestyle to my sister's.  I'm not sure if it is just happenstance or the drastic differences in our personalities, but my sister though she has always had a multitude of friends, has always lacked a close intimate group of best friends (or just the singular version of that).  Growing up, it seemed that every summer or school year she would be hanging out with a different group of friends.  I could hardly keep track of it because as soon as one girls face and name would become familiar to me she would be replaced with another a few months later.  When I was in middle school, at the beginning of my relationship with Sarah, Tarrah, and Marissa, I remember my sister just being in adoration of me and my friends.  I think what impressed my sister the most was that these same girls would be coming in and out of our house year after year.  And despite my sister and I growing apart as we entered high school and middle school respectively, I could always tell that she somewhat envied my consistent relationship with these girls.  She eventually became too cool to want to hang out with us, and she shut herself away from me and my parents.  Even though she became incredibly difficult to get along with I could always sense this distant sense of desire to have friends like mine.  Alli is still a little bit difficult to get along with, but I think the distance of me moving out has made it easier for me to connect with her.  It's definitely a relationship in my life that is not perfect and I definitely need to be more intentional with her, but I can see the beginnings of her chipping away her hard outer shell.  I think it touches her to see that even though I live 400 miles away, every time I come home those same girls she looked at with adoring eight year old eyes are still present in my life.  I long to be an example of community, accountability, and love in my sister's life, but if nothing else this makes me so incredibly grateful for the wonderful relationships in my life. 

I am just so impressed by these women in my life.  Two of us are devoting our lives to ministry, one of us is going to be a pilot, one of us is studying abroad to be a teacher, and one of us has a heart for the physically dehabilitated and is studying to help out with that.  But most impressive of all is their inspiring walks with Jesus.  These girls are my inspirations of faith.  We can spend hours in deep and meaningful conversation or hours throwing around ridiculous meaningless inside jokes.  We drive by this hill in Loomis all the time when I'm back home and we have this joke  that we are all going to buy the five houses in a row on top.  Our "plan" is to knock out the fences and have a giant Midwestern style backyard between us.  Natually babysitting roations would be set up among us etc.  My mom overheard part of this conversation and sounding concerned, asked me if we were starting a commune.  So yes.  We are starting a commune in Loomis. 

All joking aside, I just can't even express how grateful I am for these girls.  I am also expecially excited as I begin connecting with the Life Groups in the high school group.  I desire so much to encourage younger girls to go after these sorts of friendships with other girls.  I hope I can mirror the example of my own friends in their lives.  I am so grateful for my wonderful core five.  I am so blessed to be considered the average of such an impressive group of ladies.

Margarita Madness

Ok, shameless work plug, but....

It's Margarita Madness at Chilis right now! I gave up facebook and twitter for Lent, so this is my only social media outlet to advertise right now.

Margarita Madness is a nationwide contest between Chiliheads (that's what they call us) to sell the most margaritas over the next three months. There are a lot of really amazing prizes, including a brand new car, for the top sellers. I'm really only going to be pushing this contest because I am on the training team and we're expected to be in the top 10 at our store. So...because my hours are somewhat limited due to school I have to really push my friends to help me boost my margarita sales! So if you like margaritas come visit me at work! They're offering guest incentives this year too, so you guys can be entered into a drawing for gift cards every week if you come out.

So sorry about the work plug! I'd love to see you guys at Chilis though! I work every Friday night and I might be picking up another serving shift on Thursdays in the near future!